Sounds very Harriet Vane (ref. Busman's Holiday), and in her case it did take a few years of things going well before she could recognize it emotionally. Granted she's fictional (see, I do know the difference) but it's not bad advice: ease up and don't try to force yourself to be content or happy overall. Just deal with "this one moment which is quite nice really" until it sinks in that there are enough of those moments to add up to a majority.
And faking it's not a bad idea either, because a) it's probably better to seem content in your field, when dealing with people whose world is falling in and b) often how you behave becomes how you feel, rather than the converse.
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Date: 2005-04-08 05:39 pm (UTC)And faking it's not a bad idea either, because a) it's probably better to seem content in your field, when dealing with people whose world is falling in and b) often how you behave becomes how you feel, rather than the converse.