Old Friends. New Stresses.
Jan. 3rd, 2004 06:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
porphyrinAnd it occurs to me that only those with chronic sleep problems or with children would be up and posting at this time.
Or maybe those who have to go to work.
The Roo has been up for 40 minutes; I'm watching him walk from item to item in the room. But he's not what I'm thinking about right now.
I'm thinking about an old friend, if a patient can be called a friend. She was one of the first patients I ever took care of. I hadn't seen her in a year... until now.
She'd been doing really well, and now? She's on a ventilator in the BMT unit, and she's... broken.
And I don't know how to fix that.
Every time I walk into her room I want to cry. When I see her mother; when I see her; when I hear the sound of her ventilator going 'whupwhupwhupwhup'. Because this is not the way it was meant to be. She should be laughing, free of all these things that plague her, eyes sparkling and hair blowing in the breeze.
Flesh and spirit, man, and it's too bad one is tied to the other. Someday, maybe, her spirit will be doing just that. But right now, it's stuck in a body that's too broken to use.
Or maybe those who have to go to work.
The Roo has been up for 40 minutes; I'm watching him walk from item to item in the room. But he's not what I'm thinking about right now.
I'm thinking about an old friend, if a patient can be called a friend. She was one of the first patients I ever took care of. I hadn't seen her in a year... until now.
She'd been doing really well, and now? She's on a ventilator in the BMT unit, and she's... broken.
And I don't know how to fix that.
Every time I walk into her room I want to cry. When I see her mother; when I see her; when I hear the sound of her ventilator going 'whupwhupwhupwhup'. Because this is not the way it was meant to be. She should be laughing, free of all these things that plague her, eyes sparkling and hair blowing in the breeze.
Flesh and spirit, man, and it's too bad one is tied to the other. Someday, maybe, her spirit will be doing just that. But right now, it's stuck in a body that's too broken to use.
